Deep Thoughts by ...Jen

I have to post this today. I heard this on the radio this morning:

"In the end I would rather be disliked for who I am, then liked for who I am not."

LOVE LOVE LOVE that! It's so hard in this world to be who you truly are. What God has made you to be. Often feeling like you need to conform to what is expected of you or what the "norm" is doing, saying, wearing, or acting like. How wonderful to know that God made us- he made as individuals. I feel that I have spent an awful big part of my life trying to "fit in" and conform to standards - who set those standards??? Honesty: my whole life I have tried hard to do and say the right things, but yet be tough. You know what- I am a nice person! There is nothing wrong with just being nice. What ever happened to that? I mean just being nice! This past year or two many walls have been torn down to reveal what is truly meaningful to me and my family. God tore us down to build us back up.

OK was that too deep? I just get tired of seeing so many women (especially in the city- sorry) with their head up high just because they dress, look, and act a certain way. Being here has made me realize how wonderful it is to strip yourself of what is only appearence and truly be who you are. I have met some amazing women here and they are who they are! Beautiful, unique, healthy, and smart. I love it.

OK more honesty- we as women tend to judge others, compare, and judge ourselves. I don't know if that's natural or what but its the truth. I spent time looking at other women and thinking why can't I be like that? skinny, strong, funny, smart, fashionable whatever. Recently I have taken a long look at myself and realized this is how God made me! Can improve upon it? Yes! Will I have bad hair and body image days? Yes, but unless plastic surgery is performed and bones are removed I will not ever be a size 2 or good at math. Does that mean I need to give up, be fat and lazy, and never try to figure how much a tip will be? No, but I need to just accept me and learn how I can improve that. OK sorry for all the deepness!