Emotions

Emotions are running high and low here.

The lows: Mom went home yesterday, which is OK because we will be coming to Cleveland in less than 2 months but the kids were crying this evening. I am especially concerned for Adam because I think he has a hard time expressing his feelings- its like he is feeling something but not sure what it is all about. He came downstairs crying and he said that he missed his old school. I know it has to have been very hard on him to leave everything he knew and I just took it all for granted because we love it here so much but the poor little guy is sitting here with me everyday running errands, playing while I workout or get some work done. I can only imagine the changes he has endured. He was in daycare and preschool full time the first 4 years of his life. Always something fun and interesting going on. I know he will be fine in Kindergarten and I am just holding onto the few months we get together before he is off to school. Wow, that just made me teary eyed. I want whats best for him but I also want him to be with me before he is rushing off to be with friends or play sports. I know that this is a new beginning for me. The kids being in school and starting a business but its so hard to let go. Now I really understand why women get that itch for a third- don't worry its not gonna happen!

The highs:
Today I was working out and I felt sooooo good. I was listening to my music and felt so pumped up so full of energy and ambition. I felt blessed and energized. I am trying to start up a food business. I am really excited about the prospects of what could happen with this company and I won't get too much into it right now but I am so excited about it. I haven't been this pumped up about anything in my career the past ten years. God has put so many wonderful blessings in my life (I know you probably get tired of hearing that but its true!) and the idea of this business is certainly one. I think its because I spent so many years STUCK with no where to move and go and now I feel so free to do what I really want to do- work for my family and not for someone else. I was thinking today how God can take something so impossible and completely change it or maybe He just changes how we look at it. Whether its our thoughts, the way we live, where we are going, who we surround ourselves with, what we are doing. Sometimes that doubt creeps up: noway would that work, but then I push past it and keep on going.

Summer's birthday party was great- I am so happy for her. She has made some really nice friends here. We are winding down (or maybe up?) the cookie sales. We have until Tues and she wants to sell more. Too bad I can't ship -eh?

Sorry...

about the lack of posts this past week. It has been extremely busy and hectic here between my mom visiting, hockey, Girl Scouts, Summer's birthday celebrations (notice the plural), and working on the business. Tomorrow we having a party for her with 5 other girls at "Arts on Fire" where the girls can pick out a pottery piece and paint it. I am really looking forward to painting something too. I will update you more the next few days. Good night!

My workout -my weight

I am so happy- today I went to the gym to workout- my usual half hour treadmill half hour stair climber- and I actually jogged. I gave up on jogging a year ago because I just did not have the time or energy to train for it. My legs can do it- I just lose my breath if I do not do it consistently. Since we moved here I feel like I lose my breath so easily I think because of the altitude. In fact I experienced asthma here for the first time in many years! I tried to run in Aug/Sept and I just couldn't do it so I told myself well walking is OK and it is but I just wanted an extra jolt today. I didn't feel like I was sweating enough so I jogged for a song, walked, and then jogged and walked for two more songs. Baby steps. The problem is that my face gets so red and I just sweat WAY too much for a normal person.

I am not giving up on my goals. I have been wanting to lose about 10 more pounds since I left Ohio. I lost about 5-6 before I left. I am at my stopping point. What that means to me is that I am at the weight that the only way I will lose more is if I seriously step up the excersicing and reduce the amount of fat and carbs I am consuming. I am never willing to completely cut anything out because that usually backfires. I go through waves of not really being hungry and forgetting to eat to revenous, starving mode. In the end it all balances and I don't really gain or lose. So now I am gonna try to step it up because I really enjoy getting out by myself and going to the gym. BTW this gym has a second floor of windows and I can stairclimb and look at the beautiful mountains. What a blessing.

What I am proud of...

I am proud that:

My kids don't know who Lady Ga Ga is.

When we watch a movie and they hear a cuss word they have no idea what it is or that it is a bad word.

we all don't know what the top ten songs are this week.

Their favorite channel (including Summer) is Montana Kids PBS station. Shhhh don't tell her friends!

That we use an antenna to get that station! Unfortunetly we broke down and got Basic cable to watch the new seasons of 24 and Lost :(

I have no car payment.

My kids like going to the 1/2 off sale every Friday at the thrift store!

We pray together every night.

They look at other kids weirdly that are acting like savages.

Adam found 30 dollars on the floor and took his "girls" out to lunch.

Adam likes the "rules". Heaven forbid you are not following them!

I no longer NEED that Dooney and Bourke purse (although it would be nice to have :)

My biggest expense is boots.

That I am not ashamed of my faith.

What are you proud of??

Dreams

Just watched the movie Julie and Julia. I really enjoyed watching this movie. It only reinforced to me the wondrous things that God can do in our lives. I think that what plans we have for ourselves are minuscule compared to what God has planned for us. We only need to get out of our own way. Does that make sense? Sometimes what planned or want is not what is best for us but we keep on pounding away at those things when maybe something else is waiting. I love the part of the movie when Julia is packing the book up to send off to the publishers and she says that she loves "those moments". You know the ones where anything can happen! I've had those: being pregnant, applying for a job, starting a new project. Nerve wracking but exhilarating because the world of possibilites is opened up! I think I am at that moment now. Where I have the privilege of going any direction I want in my life. The movie also made me think about how we can be given what seems like a bad situation and it is turned into something spectacular. Amazing.

Oh and I have a new years resolution for you: start your own blog! It's getting lonely out here in blog world.