About Security...

I heard this quote today and I really LOVE it:

"Security is mostly a superstition. It does not exist in nature, nor do the children of men as a whole experience it. Avoiding danger is no safer in the long run than outright exposure. Life is either a daring adventure, or nothing." Helen Keller

I really like this because I think I spent most of my life looking for that false security. Really there is none in this life. There is always going to be some problem some obstacle to overcome. How many times did I say "If I could just get through this". I tried to avoid danger and let fear make my decisions for me. Knowing that I can trust God makes it easier. There will always be something to overcome but knowing its in God's plan makes it easier to know that it will pass and will lead to something better. We can rest in Him no matter what our circumstances are.

How am I capable of starting my business?

"You will have courage because you will have hope. You will be protected and will rest in safety.

You will lie down unafraid, and many will look to you for help." Job11:18-19

Recap of Adam's Birthday Party

Well, even though I really wasn't feeling my best I think the adrenaline kept me going yesterday. The theme was pirate and I mentioned that my "real" pirate couldn't come and I found a lady to bring her miniature
horse. The day was beautiful- first time in 6 years that it was nice on his birthday! It all worked out great. Summer and I went all out and dressed up like pirates and Adam wore his pirate hat, patch, and sword. Ali even wore a skull shirt. We decorated the house with pirate theme stuff. I had to order a lot online because there is not much here to chose from. At one point we had 20 kids, between brothers and sisters staying. We played a game and the kids got to ride "peanut" the miniature pony. Summer and her friends did face painting and tattoos, we had a treasure hunt and pinata, pizza and cake. So much fun! I got these cute paper treasure boxes filled with pirate stuff and hid them around our yard for the kids to find. We had friends who stayed to help which was so nice. I think everyone had fun- I know I did! It was a bit crazy when everyone came inside to eat and open presents- we had some gum get stuck in the carpet (I got it out yesterday). I said that I wanted to have a big party for Adam at least once at our house- you gotto at least once! After all these years of doing big parties for Summer and her friends Adam finally got his turn. All the friends he invited came. We were all exhausted at the end of the day and today I have been sleeping and basically laying around. Summer made breakfast this morning for everyone and Ali is making dinner. So nice. Thanks God for blessing him with a wonderful day! I wanted to post some pics but I don't feel comfortable posting pictures of the all the kids.

Need....energy

I have a lot to do today- cleaning, buying, getting ready for the party and I am not feeling well. It was a miracle I have not gotten sick up to this point- Adam has had a cold since last weekend and Ali has been coughing really since summer. He went to the doctor and they took xrays- they said they could not find anything. The doctor was stumped and told him maybe it was allergies. To what? Also, I usually get sick when I do a thorough cleaning- maybe from the dust. If I could just get enough energy for tomorrow I can lay around Sunday. OK here I go!

God Speaking to Me- mushy gooshey post ahead

There are some things I wanted to talk about- but I hesitate because I don't want anyone to be turned off by my preaching- but then again how often do we think about God? We need to even if you don't agree with me or believe what I am saying. Even if you do not believe in God hearing my testimony may give you some insight into my life and how it was changed.

So, with that preface I am going to tell you what happened to me last Sat. I believe that God speaks to us many different ways, through events and situations, people he sends to us in our lives, most importantly through his word in the Bible.If you pay attention- you will see him at work everyday in your life. But literally- I heard God speak to me. This business I am working on has its ups and downs. I know through it all that He has a plan for me and I have learned to TRUST even when things don't make sense or are not going my way. It takes a lot of stress off of me to know that ultimately He is in control. I need to follow His will for me. Sometimes that's hard but it requires looking for the ways that He speaks to me in my life. There are times when I bust my butt working on something, knowing that God is motivating me and giving me the strength to accomplish what I need to do, and then there are times when no matter what I do, the outcome is completely in his hands. So I let it go. Usually that is a battle in my brain- goes something like this: I HAVE to get this done- no, it God's timeline not yours. But I NEED to know- no God will let you know when you need to. I can't be patient- you have to be patient because you are not in control of this! Well, I was working out last Sat. feeling quite yucky, out of shape and gross, a little down about a few things and then I heard Him speak to me. He said "Jenny you can shine". What? It didn't hit me until the class was over and I went into the bathroom when I thought about what He said. I could feel my eyes well up and burn. How perfect- I can shine! I can shine with His light within me. He didn't say "you are shining" or "you are a shiner" but I know can with his Grace. I need to change a few things in my life to get to my full shining potential- particularly my discipline about some things. But I am so thankful for those words.

This Sat. is Adam's 6th birthday "pirate" party at our house. 16 kids are coming, boys and girls, of all ages. I have been kinda down the last few days because we had scheduled a pirate to come and facepaint do balloons etc and they cancelled. It has been on my mind along with the 20 million other things I got going on. I prayed this morning to ease my mind. Well, what do you know- I checked my email and the "Seize the Deal" of the day was Horses for Hooplas! I called the lady and she is coming!! She is bringing a miniature horse with obstacle course for the kids to ride. I am soooo excited. Can't wait. Thank you God for these blessings!