Right now Adam is watching some show where the cars talk so I thought I would take a moment to write some thoughts. This is the first year in ten years (besides maternity leave) that I have not been working. Here I am with my dream come true and I am worried that a) am I putting enough effort into reaching out to people? I tend to stay in my "nest". I like to be in my own world. I don't like extending myself socially. I like to be around people, I like meeting new people, and I like to talk to people. I like to be friendly and volunteer but I guess I don't know how to build ongoing social relationships with people. I meet people and have a lot to talk about but then when it comes to the next step (making phone calls, inviting people over etc) I just stop. I guess I am so happy just to be with my family but I know that is not healthy. We are starting to volunteer at the shelter and I know I will get involved with the Parent teacher group. It makes me nervous when I have to involve other people with our schedule. Is that weird?
I am also worried about b) am I structuring Adam's day the right way? I guess that will get better when he starts a preschool (which I have not been successful with finding one yet). Right now we get up, take Summer to school, come back clean up, make breakfast, clean up, he gets on one of his computer programs, watches PBS, plays, I clean do laundry etc. by that time its 12:30-1:00. Then we run errands and its time to pick up Summer. Somewhere in there we read, do some learning activities, bike or walk. Is there a "right" way to be a stay at home mom?
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I guess I didn't realize that you have been at work for the last 10 years. Did you work over summer breaks too?
The past few I did. I am so used to being on a rigid schedule that I am not used to all this unstructured time. I guess it will get better as time goes on. I am really going to have to force myself to follow a schedule cause before I know it its 1:00!
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