Emotions

Emotions are running high and low here.

The lows: Mom went home yesterday, which is OK because we will be coming to Cleveland in less than 2 months but the kids were crying this evening. I am especially concerned for Adam because I think he has a hard time expressing his feelings- its like he is feeling something but not sure what it is all about. He came downstairs crying and he said that he missed his old school. I know it has to have been very hard on him to leave everything he knew and I just took it all for granted because we love it here so much but the poor little guy is sitting here with me everyday running errands, playing while I workout or get some work done. I can only imagine the changes he has endured. He was in daycare and preschool full time the first 4 years of his life. Always something fun and interesting going on. I know he will be fine in Kindergarten and I am just holding onto the few months we get together before he is off to school. Wow, that just made me teary eyed. I want whats best for him but I also want him to be with me before he is rushing off to be with friends or play sports. I know that this is a new beginning for me. The kids being in school and starting a business but its so hard to let go. Now I really understand why women get that itch for a third- don't worry its not gonna happen!

The highs:
Today I was working out and I felt sooooo good. I was listening to my music and felt so pumped up so full of energy and ambition. I felt blessed and energized. I am trying to start up a food business. I am really excited about the prospects of what could happen with this company and I won't get too much into it right now but I am so excited about it. I haven't been this pumped up about anything in my career the past ten years. God has put so many wonderful blessings in my life (I know you probably get tired of hearing that but its true!) and the idea of this business is certainly one. I think its because I spent so many years STUCK with no where to move and go and now I feel so free to do what I really want to do- work for my family and not for someone else. I was thinking today how God can take something so impossible and completely change it or maybe He just changes how we look at it. Whether its our thoughts, the way we live, where we are going, who we surround ourselves with, what we are doing. Sometimes that doubt creeps up: noway would that work, but then I push past it and keep on going.

Summer's birthday party was great- I am so happy for her. She has made some really nice friends here. We are winding down (or maybe up?) the cookie sales. We have until Tues and she wants to sell more. Too bad I can't ship -eh?