God working in my life...

I am truly humbled by God's love and generosity in my life. We have been through so much these past few years. Lives pulled apart and mended together. Tests of friendship, family, and love. Much of the drama created by our decisions. We have learned a lot about our Faith and living by it. I have learned to let my worries go when it gets to a point of overwhelming my life. I literally close my eyes and imagine the worries flying up and away. When I go through a hard time I figure that God is trying to tell me or teach me something. If things don't work out the way I planned I figure that "it wasn't meant to be". If you have spent any time with me this past year you know that is my motto. I don't fight against what it isn't "flowing". We have truly realized the value of the material things- we were ready to let it all go-literally. God pulled us up once again. Why did I have so little faith? Day after day it was hard, not knowing what was going to happen tomorrow. But every time God pulled us through. Now I know we will go through hard times again, but I feel that our faith is strengthened. For the first time in our marriage we prayed together. We read the children's Bible together almost every night. My kids know the stories. We pray together every night. We still have a long way to go. My kids will be tried and tested but at least they will know what God's will is for them. I am sure they will stray but hopefully they will remember some of this. Besides its not my job to save my kids- God will do that- but at least I can teach them what I have learned. We prayed together every night for God to help us. And He did. Hopefully when my kids get older they will remember God's faithfulness during that hard time. Sometimes I worry if I am doing what I am supposed to be but I know in my heart God will lead me. I just let it go...into the atmosphere. I am so thankful we are here together and that I am blessed to be able to stay home.